Hands held tight, they crossed the crowded street together. Him leading, as she adjusted her most stylish 'going incognito' gear - a pair of over-sized sunglasses, a massive grey poncho & skin-tight black leggings. Her hair was gathered rather messily at the top of her head. A couple of pimples that had appeared overnight had been camouflaged by an expert hand. She bent forward, leaning into him as they speedwalked through the crowd. Her ploy was working, the more she dug into his back, poky sunglasses and all, the less passers-by seemed to care.
And she said: "....I feel like a fool walking around with all this makeup on my face."
He replied: "Take it off then."
"I can't. If do and someone takes a picture, I won't hear the end of it in tomorrow's papers."
"Like what?"
"Like how old I look, how much work I need to get done. How the work I have had done is so terrible."
"So what if they do?"
"You think this is vanity? It's not. I'd just as soon be out for dinner with all my wrinkles & warts on full display."
"Then...?"
"It's the machine. The machine can't function if I stop caring. One bad piece in the press, one paranoid producer. One paranoid producer, one film lost. One film lost, another piece of bad press. It snowballs and before you know it - you're done. Finished."
"Aren't you overstating things a bit?"
"You think? That's because you're not running the machine. You're not responsible if it comes to a creaking halt."
"Aren't you attending those prayer sessions? Don't they tell you, there is no machine?"
"Yeah, everything's a stream....it's all changing, I'm changing, you're changing. Nothing's permanent."
"See? You're not supposed to sweat the small stuff."
"Like the death of my career? Like letting down everyone who works for me? The loss of respect...bankruptcy?"
"Well...hmmm...maybe 'nothing's permanent' doesn't necessarily mean 'nothing matters'...."
"I don't understand what you're saying. Are we there yet? How much further? People are begining to stare at me - I must look like such a freak with all this stuff caked on my face."
"Almost there. You're right, I don't get it either - how do you give a fuck about this world without giving a fuck? Don't worry, you look beautiful."
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And she said: "....I feel like a fool walking around with all this makeup on my face."
He replied: "Take it off then."
"I can't. If do and someone takes a picture, I won't hear the end of it in tomorrow's papers."
"Like what?"
"Like how old I look, how much work I need to get done. How the work I have had done is so terrible."
"So what if they do?"
"You think this is vanity? It's not. I'd just as soon be out for dinner with all my wrinkles & warts on full display."
"Then...?"
"It's the machine. The machine can't function if I stop caring. One bad piece in the press, one paranoid producer. One paranoid producer, one film lost. One film lost, another piece of bad press. It snowballs and before you know it - you're done. Finished."
"Aren't you overstating things a bit?"
"You think? That's because you're not running the machine. You're not responsible if it comes to a creaking halt."
"Aren't you attending those prayer sessions? Don't they tell you, there is no machine?"
"Yeah, everything's a stream....it's all changing, I'm changing, you're changing. Nothing's permanent."
"See? You're not supposed to sweat the small stuff."
"Like the death of my career? Like letting down everyone who works for me? The loss of respect...bankruptcy?"
"Well...hmmm...maybe 'nothing's permanent' doesn't necessarily mean 'nothing matters'...."
"I don't understand what you're saying. Are we there yet? How much further? People are begining to stare at me - I must look like such a freak with all this stuff caked on my face."
"Almost there. You're right, I don't get it either - how do you give a fuck about this world without giving a fuck? Don't worry, you look beautiful."
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Yes, the machine. It's easy to be a stream when one is far away from machines.
ReplyDeleteLovely story.
Thank you, dear Banno :)
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